loving me

I don’t know when the bullying began.  To be honest, I don’t remember not picking on her.  I have called her fat, ugly, and disgusting.   I have told her she was a horrible mother, wife, and friend. I have told her she was a disappointment and embarrassment to her parents and family.  I have pointed out her of sins; reminding her over and over of her failures.

Horrible, isn’t it?  Why would I treat any woman like this?  Especially when that woman is me.  I am amazed at how easy it is for me to overlook other’s short comings, but I will continue to point out each of mine.  I can see beauty in each of my friends, but I find the ugly in me.  Why do I bully myself like this?  Why is it that I love my family and friends with passion and grace and gentleness, and yet, I continue to pick on myself?  How can I call myself a lover of people if I can’t love myself?

So I am standing up to the bully in my mind. I am demanding her to stop.  I will be gentle with my thoughts.  I will be kind to my heart.  I will be loving to my soul.   I want to become a woman who loves herself, so that she can love others better.

To get started, I wrote myself a Valentine’s day note.  I reminded myself of my strengths.  I encouraged my gifts.  I applauded my accomplishments.  This year, I encourage you to do the same.  Let’s be people that are as gentle to our own souls as we are with other’s.  Let’s be just as graceful with our shortcomings as we are with other’s.  When we say we love people, let’s include ourself.

To read more about love, go to Susan’s blog and then continue around the circle.

6 Comments Add yours

  1. Susan says:

    I love how you love. You're going to love it too!!! It's funny, protective, gentle, encouraging and fierce. Keep writing those Valentine's notes all year long!! xoxo

  2. Thank you for sharing your heart, Staci. I so resonated with this post!

  3. Thank you for this.
    I really found myself in your words and feelings.

  4. fourcalders says:

    I love this post Staci. This is me to a T. Thank you for posting this. I'm going to start writing myself some letters and having it out with my inner bully. xo

  5. I read this just today. It's crazy when I think you have such similar feelings about yourself as I do with myself yet as a friend you are full of such enormous love, grace and understanding. I would never think you would bully yourself since you display such bursting love with all others. So to read it has me realizing we are so similar and we can change, we can. It's possible and I can appreciate this post very much. I love how no matter how old we become we still have room to grow and learn. You teach me with your blog posts. I love to learn from you.

    Love your friend
    Tracie

  6. hellosonya says:

    Lovely, honest post!

Thank you for your kind words.

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